Quiet

Emo max,
i have been going through bad days this year,
try to persuade myself that i have take things too seriously,
it's my bad habit,
i look at things way too serious,
actually the problem is not as serious as i thought,
worried killed.

I change,
i tell no one my true thoughts,
i keep my emotions very deeply as if anyone would look down on me if they knew it.
I'm tired, i hope i could tell someone,
i have been expressing my true feelings so in secondary school time,
i was once so open and i said i didn't secrets,
i said i could share and tell anything, to anyone.

But i CHANGE,
i become so quiet,
some people realize my quietness and wanted me to spoke,
but i don't,
no one successfully helped me,
i have been more and more depress and time passed,
i don't spoke my true self,
in fact,
i don't even know who am i already.
HOW AM I SUPPOSE TO SPOKE MY TRUE FEELINGS WHEN I DON'T EVEN KNOW MY TRUE FEELINGS.

My life have been a mess.

I tried so hard and hope so badly i could grew up, go to college, work.

But now.

Awesome, i'm already in college, and going to interview few weeks later.
But, it's not what i think at all, not at all, i did thought this world way too beautiful, it's not.

Isn't too late to know,
or too early.

I wanted to spoke, but to who, about what, i feel so silly, the biggest enemy is myself.