That's all

I'm getting a lil bit too emotional recently.
I'm so abnormal.
I've so many work to do yet i chose to drag it.
I'm so busy yet i chose to entertain.
I thought entertain could make me happy but seems like it did not.
I didn't know what could make me happy actually.
It's been quite a while i didn't feel this hopeless.
There are so many things i didn't know.
There are so many things i didn't realize.
There are so many things i couldn't handle.











That's all.







okay enough, I'm feeling better after typing all these.

或许

或许在你们严重我只是个被宠坏，麻烦又没用的拖油瓶。

或许在我自己眼中也是的。

As usual

As usual wasting my time scrolling fb and reading blog again ohno.

I found myself easily influence by ppl,
nw majority of my frens are last minute person,
and i getting nearer to their society yeahh(what-_-)
2-3more weeks to sembreak,
although it seems like there're still bunch of work nt yet done,
but sure can do in time one >_<(just need to stress out abit)
And as usual, i always have holiday before i reached holiday bahaha,
my mind are stuck on pretty clothes, earrings, food drinks and stuff,
hey what about ASSIGNMENT? erm.

im doing moral exercise!
just that i started to wondering on fb and blogs after like 30min of doin lol.

say hi to rillakuma, a pressie for my bestie.(i invented this word, it means bestfren lol)

can't wait to reach her this present during sembreak.(I probably drag this buffday pressie too long lol)
I've another bestie goin to study oversea liao, probably no chance to reach her buffday presie when she buffday,
so i seems to eye-ing on her buffday pressie already(great reason to shopping =_= <and her buffday is on november. (ya it's super far away from nw wahaha)

my fridge is currently -----
i'm quite used to it,
very much easier to take cure compare to my previous long fridge which keep on want to share food and soup with me -_-
but imma nt gonna show my ---- photos la.

GO DO WORK LA LYDIA WOO. >-<

吹水

我最近真的蛮常浪费时间的，
虽然觉得很不应该，可是。。算了吧，功课做得完就好。
最近用钱超凶，就是很想血拼就对了，
今天老爸才给我RM50零用钱，我刚刚网购了RM65两件裙，够够力，
后天还要交RM85来printing envelope，
然后还要不懂用多unlimited的钱来print我的storybook，
读design真是什么都讲钱。。
不过用钱在学业就算了，这时我还拿钱来买衣服哈哈
噢对，还有昨天托同学帮我买礼物给mushi也用了一些钱，
礼物我自己很喜欢（不是应该接受礼物的人喜欢么？）可爱就是了。

还有，最近总觉得夜很静，老妈和老爸很早睡，
11点就很安静，
最近太迟睡咯，
今天放学后遇到很久不见的同学，
我的黑眼圈吓到他了哈哈
（是有木有那么恐怖啦－－）

还有约三个星期就放假了，
希望功课都好好地。
希望自己可以更爱圣灵，更注重神的事情～

吹太多水了，去睡觉><
明天要做功课了啦啦啦，我给它拖太久了，够够力。

weirdo

once again, it's like thousand years i nvr blog,
bf say my blog is like all negative thing,
the reason is,
i nvr blog happy thing bcoz i'm happy to live reality and need not to rely on blog >-<
blog is my trash bin!
So if anyone out there saw my blog(coz like no ppl ever read tis blog ahaha)
pls dun missunderstood why am i so miserable huh~ >v<

kinda hopeless,
i dun knw how to say,
i juz feel tired,
ntg good to say,
maybe im a terrible person,
but i hav no cure on my terrribleness.
wondering if someone really think im great.
or maybe no.
im bad, ego and seldom care my frens,
wondering if my frens still think that im their fren :(

im too busy.
(lol this blog post swing here and there and the sentence all non-relatent to each other -_-)

im a weirdo.
(swing again)

短水

这是我做功课最慢的周末？
（因为一边做一边玩，哈哈。。-.-还好意思讲）
不过算了啦，反正那么快做完也是蒙星星，
最重要是开心 @。@

放轻松点啦～
（不知道deadline前到底做不做得完＝＝）

我必须时时刻刻提醒自己，别跟别人比较好吗，这样应该会开心很多。

btw,刚刚看杨宝贝的部落格，这篇很有意思下按进去她说：人生出来不是受苦的，而是及时行乐

待会儿或是明天再做typo吧-.-

－吹水帖－

pissed post

well i've been super pissed off since wednesday, idky
i've to admit tat i even throw things in my room on thursday night lol
(not that serious as you thought -.- it juz last for few seconds)

i've been put way too much pressure on myself, seriously,
rationally think, actually my result seems to remain the same standard,
but i just DON'T KNOW WHY thought that i'm weak and useless#crap
some negative energy cloud just seems to randomly fall on my head -.-

it's too much, i've to stop my pissed off, it's useless to be pissed, it's sinful.

weak than others so what, untalented so what, not improve much so what.
i just hafta get used to everything.

sembreak where are you, i need some silent space,
i want to put more focus on my God, but my mind are all stucked.

-.- don't ask me what happen, i'll not answer -.-
my reason is just plainly mouliu.

btw i'm escaping from ma work a lil bit to post this pissed post lol,
tis is the work im currently doing,(just feel like posting)


Now imma doing this, you cannot imagine it took how much time -.-
i still have about 11more scene to go#crap


bf sometimes say i've been complaining too much,
but if i don't say out you want me die of pissed off meh.


-.-