这么一回事

不记得自己已经过了多久的假期生活，
好像很久很久了，3-4星期有吗？

这次假期实在是过太长太长了，
我实在很难想象2个月后我要怎么从这种舒适生活抽离。

这是我过得最最最没有羞耻心的假期，
完全没有要找工作的打算，
是说，我一想到要工作就很害怕很爱面子很怕接受挫折。
是怎样，
这不是我啊！
我记得我以前一昧往前冲，是个不怕辛劳只为争一口气的女孩，
果然，
我只能说岁月不留人（众：用错谚语了吧你）
从前的元素，从前的冲劲，都没了，
剩下的，只有“爱面子”元素lol，
大退化一种。

但除了在这里碎碎念我也没什么可以做的了，
但其实是可以做的，但我却不愿意去做。

我也好担心，我到底能不能顺利毕业，毕业后到底能不能找到合心意的工作。
即将面临人生的转折了，
我怎么能继续任性下去，继续过着大小姐的生活，
长大就是这么一回事，又不是不知道，只是一直不愿意面对罢了。

健康

最近健康真的很烂，
虽然没有到达生大病的程度，
但是伤风已经有4-5天了，
而且经常全身乏力又头晕（我是个经常头晕的人，讨厌）
加上我肚子也不舒服了3-4天，
却迟迟没办法上大号。

昨晚一阵阵剧痛终于成功上大号，
大号却是黑色的，
上网查询说有可能肠内出血，
也有可能只是吃太多酸性食物。
（抱歉，在部落格大谈大号好像有点恶心）

反正我到现在肚子还在不舒服就对了。。

可是戒嘴好难噢，我太贪吃了哎。

One Day Outing

ello, since i have nothing to do,
am going to blog about yesterday's outing with the girls.

1st station, we went to Desa Park x Amelio for big breakfast:

Sorry, bad angle and blurry =_= dare not said i learn photography last semester..|||
Btw, the pasta is awesome!

And pizza, and still have chicken chop that I didn't take photo.

Jasmine and Cody geh coffee.

Ya right, camera eat first.

Then we went to the Desa Park high tech playground to play.

That's me.

Sushi.

Sexy Cody.

Siew Ping.

Jasmine, who force by us.
No idea what we are doing xp.

Cody force by us to play this.

I was force to play the high tech super fast slide as well,
but am not going to post the photo xp.


Station 2: Bangsar village
Super far and very hard to find parking urghh.
By the way, we still get to go Wondermama.

Rootbeer Potong that i always crave to have one,
emm, normal only.

Again, camera eat first xp.

We ordered dessert only, the ice kacang taste very awkward for me.

And so this is our unexpected last station,
tapao mille crepe from "Humble Beginning"

Sad worr, because we drive a long way and spent too much time for parking,
so the last station in The Bee in Publika was cancelled t.t
If i knew Wondermama is the last station,
i would have ordered the sandwich or wad.

Then we lost our road back to home lol.
Kelian Jasmine reached home late because of fetching me back plus traffic jam,
hope she will be fine.

Okay, that's it.


有些友谊，好像已经开始变得生疏，
我开始觉得我是否已经，在你们心目中变得不再重要，
我必须承认，我是位很自我又很懒惰维持友谊的人，
从前我从不在乎，这次却变了有点敏感，
我是怎样。我是真的觉得我有初老症状了啦！
为什么我那么敏感-.-

这个假期我只有两个愿望：
1. 不断吃好料直到快乐（自以为很有钱lol）
2. 不要变笨 （很重要）

发型篇

大家好，是时候剪发咯，
这次的模范生是：

鄧鄧，鄧福如

jasmine说我很像她，
嗯。。。
如果我再瘦些啦 TAT
放假了吃东西又很放肆了，啊怎么办。

绑了马尾是不是很活泼呢，但是我担心我头发少刘海不能跟她一样怎么办。
明天该立即行动么？ （我在一小时前才燃起想剪这发型的冲动的）




目前我发型大概是这样（但现在刘海又长咯），没什么型，好几个月没有去发廊剪发，刘海都是自己剪的！@@

这张是sushi拍给她的4potrait assignment啦，我是她其中一个model，嘻嘻。

Five minute

Just a random five minute pure music track,
i found it for my webdesign 2 walkthrough video,
i seldom listen to music, since i went college,
i don't really like music, actually,
it makes me emotional,
i hate the feeling of lossing control of mine (even though i always did lol)

It's depressing.

There're so many things i want to do,
but dare not to do.
Ya, you all are right,
i'm pampered, too much.
Even though i always felt angry if anyone say i'm pampered/don't know anything.
Yeap it's true,
i'm angry,
because i know it's true,
because i'm self-abased,
that's why im angry,
i know it's true,
but i did not make a change,
that's why i'm angry,
because,

I'm angry with myself, that's it.
Satisfied?

Ya right, i'm useless, the youngest, no contribution, ya right, because i'm young, ya, right.


I'm worried.
About my future.
How if i can't earn back what i spent.
How if i can't did a good job.
How if.
How if.
Probably, i'm too confident that i can find a cool job.
Probably, i can't.



Left me alone.