在各種矛盾之下還是發了這篇博客，
整整荒廢了5個月的博客，
曾經可是淹滿了我的苦水的河流呀～

現在苦水也都退去了，
也想說不可以一直往這裡塞苦水，
一直都沒有放棄鼓勵自己樂觀的願望，
想到今天還不能明白別人的樂觀，
也或許別人的樂觀是假的？（是見不得別人好嗎哈哈）
當然不是，
我想最大的原因也只是別人努力調整心情時我沒看見吧。

想到這點，我也不能怠惰，
因此我最近開始多喝巧克力（誤）
物理性地增加腦波的快樂激素之餘，
心理性也感到比較好過。
另外，也不可以過於計較金錢，
鴨梨時就多逛街多吃好料吧 ><
不然以後憂鬱死了錢留下來幹什麼（屁啦）

最近看了好勵志的香港電影－－狂舞派


就這樣。（又隨隨便便結束文章-.-)

Cheers 2014

In case i forgot how to speak or write English lolz,
I ought to type this blog post in English.

It's a long time i didn't update my blog,
I'm happy to graduate and get rid of jamming life,
I'm happy that I'm finally stress-free.

I'm currently working in Soxworld Jusco,
It's a rather easy job with low salary lol,
all I have to do everyday were sweep/wipe/sell,
all these are just concluded into "show myself".
I need not to squeeze my brain juice/research/compete with others.

It's all easy yet I need to constantly push myself,
or else I'll forever lazy and live in poor lol.
Hunger game 3rd version took me forever to finish, I'll keep it up and read more when there're no customer haha.
And I force myself today to finally refined my website,
http://lydiazwoo.com/
The next step will be researching for companies to interview(I must back to Multimedia design world lol that's what my mom keep reminding thou)
Although i can only left my current promoter job at the end of February.

It's all good, cheers~

改什么

Intern第一天，
没什么特别，
一如往常地怨。怨。怨。
不是特别不好，是我特别矛盾。
是坏习惯，不是改不了，是没有定力改，
和中学时的作风很不一样，
打从离开中学以后，
改，
就变得很难。
中学是总是不明白别人为什么不改，
为什么知道了自己不好只会一昧自唉自怨，
为什么不改，
我愿意改，
不懂与人沟通，我愿意鼓起勇气，
我愿意参加校内活动，
我愿意改变，
变得更好，有什么不好。

如今我不改了，不想改，不懂改，没力改，
最理直气壮的一句“我是我，为什么要为别人的批评而改”。
除了改设计改点子改变注意，
其余，
都不改。

我怀疑是惰性，
我怀疑是自负，
我怀疑是矛盾，
我怀疑，
如果改了，真的会变得更好吗？是真的吗？真的会更好？到底是不是真的？
想着想着，为什么要改，
于是我继续自负下去。

又自负又没自信又不相信自己又不相信别人，





有什么是真的。

有时候相信别人错相信自己又错，我不懂相信。

Currently

Being emotionally fragile as always,
as what my lecturer shared few days ago,
"if you avoid to feel it, sooner or later you will become a robot and miss out a lot of little details in life, details eventually are great ideas"
--something like that, i don't remember the exalt sentence.

Being robotic for almost three years since i enter college,
I used to feel a lot when i'm in primary school being a typical emo writer lol,
but,
life is cruel, reality is cruel.
As people grow up,
more responsibilities fall on us,
i admit i'm not grown enough to hold these responsibilities,
i struggle a lot and i hit on walls, fall down on floors(both figuratively and literally -.-)
Btw i'm still struggling lol, but i improve i guess, now i'm emotionally calmer and trying hard to avoid falls.

No idea what i wanted to share lol,
sorry for my poor grammar,
sleepiness, tiredness and worried would conclude my current life.

I wonder when i am going to change better.

Calm Life

Should had blogged something good so that i could improve to a much a optimist person lol.
In fact, life is not bad recently.

My emotion get much more calmer,
basically because my face pimples problem reduce,
I left only 2 tablets and I've been stop eating for two days.

Try not to touch any spicy and definitely no fried food,
eat apples everyone, usually 2 apples a day.

Almost everyone is crazy about minions,
as a result, i was brain-washed lol,
and bought 2 anyway :) one yellow and one purple,
I want the clap hands with eye turning left and right, it was so cute but out of stock at 1pm in the afternoon lol it was unexpectedly too fast -.-
Someone posted on facebook said that someone bought all the minions and sell it higher price out :/ lol it was bad

Just spent RM58 to print my name card just now, it was pricy man,
but ok la Sunday i ask my dad to bought me a RM10 purse,
I likey but i think it will spoil very fast, so cheap what you want.

Having new things make people happy,
am going to get my taobao white huge bag by Thursday,
meeting with my beloved Waisum,
haven't saw her for months!
Although I'm busy but still have to spend time to meet out.

碎碎念碎碎碎碎

嘿，大家好，
每次我觉得很lost的时候，blogging是我其中的选择，
虽然只是打打字，说一堆乱七八糟的，可是也可以解压的。

就是这样我日复一日地活着，
今年脑袋不太灵光，一直处于空白，
很多事情看开，并且一直迁就，为了迁就只好不去想坏的，
就这样一直不想不想，脑袋也就习惯了空白 lol

人就是群体生活，
尤其是选了multimedia design，
再不喜欢group work也要熬 lol，
也不可以一直说不喜欢，不然会一直不喜欢下去，就会没有希望。
只是，
可不可以不要involve boycott，再不喜欢那个人，
也不好要别人也一起不喜欢吧，
那人情何以堪，每个人都会做错。
每次看着别人说谁不好，总是在担心，
什么时候会轮到我被讲 ==

Just, keep myself clean.
不是在装神圣，只是是是非非太难懂，也不想懂。

我知道自从有group work这个东西我就埋怨越来越多，
上个sem简直到达埋怨最高峰 swt，
这个sem更多group work（可以讲是每个科目，只有一科portfolio的不是）
来看看我会不会破埋怨纪录
我会尽量不埋怨的！埋怨是罪恶，我会努力享受过程的！


就像这个图片，
不同的人格combination说不定就出现意想不到的惊喜与火花，
别害怕，尽量跟不同人合作。

还有就是，
我不可以再有依赖心理 lol (每次有group work我就会不由自主依赖他人完成，当我要去做的时候就心不甘情不愿 -.-，虽然我也不尽然依赖，只是心理上，实际上我还是会去做的！）

p/s:这几天超多担心超害怕，都不懂自己在担心什么。

这么一回事

不记得自己已经过了多久的假期生活，
好像很久很久了，3-4星期有吗？

这次假期实在是过太长太长了，
我实在很难想象2个月后我要怎么从这种舒适生活抽离。

这是我过得最最最没有羞耻心的假期，
完全没有要找工作的打算，
是说，我一想到要工作就很害怕很爱面子很怕接受挫折。
是怎样，
这不是我啊！
我记得我以前一昧往前冲，是个不怕辛劳只为争一口气的女孩，
果然，
我只能说岁月不留人（众：用错谚语了吧你）
从前的元素，从前的冲劲，都没了，
剩下的，只有“爱面子”元素lol，
大退化一种。

但除了在这里碎碎念我也没什么可以做的了，
但其实是可以做的，但我却不愿意去做。

我也好担心，我到底能不能顺利毕业，毕业后到底能不能找到合心意的工作。
即将面临人生的转折了，
我怎么能继续任性下去，继续过着大小姐的生活，
长大就是这么一回事，又不是不知道，只是一直不愿意面对罢了。

健康

最近健康真的很烂，
虽然没有到达生大病的程度，
但是伤风已经有4-5天了，
而且经常全身乏力又头晕（我是个经常头晕的人，讨厌）
加上我肚子也不舒服了3-4天，
却迟迟没办法上大号。

昨晚一阵阵剧痛终于成功上大号，
大号却是黑色的，
上网查询说有可能肠内出血，
也有可能只是吃太多酸性食物。
（抱歉，在部落格大谈大号好像有点恶心）

反正我到现在肚子还在不舒服就对了。。

可是戒嘴好难噢，我太贪吃了哎。

One Day Outing

ello, since i have nothing to do,
am going to blog about yesterday's outing with the girls.

1st station, we went to Desa Park x Amelio for big breakfast:

Sorry, bad angle and blurry =_= dare not said i learn photography last semester..|||
Btw, the pasta is awesome!

And pizza, and still have chicken chop that I didn't take photo.

Jasmine and Cody geh coffee.

Ya right, camera eat first.

Then we went to the Desa Park high tech playground to play.

That's me.

Sushi.

Sexy Cody.

Siew Ping.

Jasmine, who force by us.
No idea what we are doing xp.

Cody force by us to play this.

I was force to play the high tech super fast slide as well,
but am not going to post the photo xp.


Station 2: Bangsar village
Super far and very hard to find parking urghh.
By the way, we still get to go Wondermama.

Rootbeer Potong that i always crave to have one,
emm, normal only.

Again, camera eat first xp.

We ordered dessert only, the ice kacang taste very awkward for me.

And so this is our unexpected last station,
tapao mille crepe from "Humble Beginning"

Sad worr, because we drive a long way and spent too much time for parking,
so the last station in The Bee in Publika was cancelled t.t
If i knew Wondermama is the last station,
i would have ordered the sandwich or wad.

Then we lost our road back to home lol.
Kelian Jasmine reached home late because of fetching me back plus traffic jam,
hope she will be fine.

Okay, that's it.


有些友谊，好像已经开始变得生疏，
我开始觉得我是否已经，在你们心目中变得不再重要，
我必须承认，我是位很自我又很懒惰维持友谊的人，
从前我从不在乎，这次却变了有点敏感，
我是怎样。我是真的觉得我有初老症状了啦！
为什么我那么敏感-.-

这个假期我只有两个愿望：
1. 不断吃好料直到快乐（自以为很有钱lol）
2. 不要变笨 （很重要）

发型篇

大家好，是时候剪发咯，
这次的模范生是：

鄧鄧，鄧福如

jasmine说我很像她，
嗯。。。
如果我再瘦些啦 TAT
放假了吃东西又很放肆了，啊怎么办。

绑了马尾是不是很活泼呢，但是我担心我头发少刘海不能跟她一样怎么办。
明天该立即行动么？ （我在一小时前才燃起想剪这发型的冲动的）




目前我发型大概是这样（但现在刘海又长咯），没什么型，好几个月没有去发廊剪发，刘海都是自己剪的！@@

这张是sushi拍给她的4potrait assignment啦，我是她其中一个model，嘻嘻。

性子

aww my blog look so bright now i can hardly focus my eyes on it lol.

Feel like a lazy ass now,
everyday stay at home do nothing,
didn't help much in housework lol i dunno why,
i just don't feel like doing it, sorry mamapapa.

Want to hang out so much but i didn't,
want to eat gcb so much but always have situation that cause me fail to have one,
so sien i hafta comfort myself by scrolling through online shopping page again and again lol.

就是这样，这样任着性子。

放假到现在都没有庆祝过。难过。

....

been thinking i should blog something but still end up blog nothing.

So boring that finally i blog lol(what am i talking rawrarara)

Finally i'm in sembreak,
unbelievable i've been stuck in home for 1 week!! YOU KNOW! ONE WEEK -_-
(except going baby's house and church)
i'm going to cry infinity times.
No one is free to have outings, baby neither, not free to have outing with me but don't allow me to have outing alone, speechless me...

Dying soon....
Even have less outings than when i've class..

......

Rawrrr why pps you cannot search out the drama that i want to watch!
Plus some random indian uncle keep call on wrong number to my house,
the home phone is upstairs, I'M NOT GOING TO PICK UP ANYMORE -_____-
......

*deep breath


okay whatever, i wanna get topshop/zara pastel color skinny pants,

mint?purple? wait until promotion 1st ~_~

So obsessed with pastel color recently, so dreamy so cute,
should have change my blog theme to pastel soon lol.

Btw, MCD GCB is back! ohyeah.

Old & Crazy

I'm crazy, kept spending these days,
even though it's not my money,it's my mom's money

I have bad taste and i know it,
just stop asking me to change this and that,
but when i bought something new to change myself you say i bought shit again,
just tell me wad to buy and stop critique without giving me a solution.

That's all for the topic.


Last saturday i was having fun with classmates in photography studio.
I put on cody's wig & alice help me to make up.

Even though it's a little bit too heavy for daily,
but i does think i look good with eyeliner,
maybe should consider to consume one later on.

And so, I am finally a pretty&trendy girl for one day.



Then i back to my normal nerd life, which is keep on doing assignments & watch tv.

Got my new spec today, not used to it coz i don't usually wear such a big spec,
but it's not cheap, please don't tell it i look bad on it, it's money you know.




Seriously i should stop shopping, i'm not a trendy girl, just accept that.
I left my pendrive in class i guess, i'm old.

又碎碎念了

最近我病咯，虽然不是很严重，
只是喉咙痛热气等等，
现在我流鼻水流到眼睛都看不清楚去了lol

最近我真的花钱花到好像流水一样，
本来很craving要买rilakkuma iphone casing了的，
上课星期我去pasar malam看到才卖RM10 A_A
可是我太三心两意，不懂要买哪个好，最后就都没有买到，
然后就想着那个casing想了一个星期lol
我觉得我做人真的太三心两意，经常拿不定主意haih，
我真的太怕后悔和吃亏了 囧

好吧现在来讲功课，
最近的功课都很大份（形容词有点怪怪的XD）
就是要做很久的那种，做一个月然后要做很多很多的interface D:
很担心做不完做不好。。
然后我发现我真的很容易被周围的人影响，
以前我做功课总是赶赶赶，越快看到成果越好，
可是出来的结果就是略粗糙了。
但最近我看着我的同学对她们的作品都很讲究，
就连那个空格跟旁边有点不对称都要给它调一调，
结果就当然做得比较慢啦，成品也比较细致，
今天原本target做至少一页sketch的interface..
结果。。。
哎不要讲了，我还是去做功课吧现在。

早餐碎碎念

今天早上自己驾车出去买早餐～
到现在也只懂得驾车在kepong area趴趴走，没出息-.-

我致爱mcd，
很久没有买的big breakfast，
每次都是买一粒汉堡跟咖啡set罢了～

那个蛋厚，我很久很久以前吃是无敌好吃的 >< 现在好像变去没那么好吃了D:
然后我很喜欢那个面包��， 很有口感，可是不可以放久，会咬不到-.-
那片肉也很好吃～hashbrown也很不错～

好吧，我很像在跟mcd打广告酱。

还有upload了几张自拍在instagram没有转去twitter，
原来用电脑是开不到instagram的 D:


很多年前妈妈在hongkong disneyland买给我的mickey耳环（可是我没有去过啦～）

有那么一点点点去bangkok的欲望，因为很多说bangkok shopping很便宜～
可是shopping这件事情＝花大钱～我撤消欲望了:p

Holiday at home

Been staying at home whole day doing nothing =.=
what i did was:

TV--
I watched titanic on astro!
Only the back part anyway -.-
I've no idea who are the main characters lol,
so many different story happened on that boat.
But i did shed my tears when the boat is about to sink,
the waiter boy let the waitress girl go with the small boat 1st,
the boy said "I've nvr kiss you"
girl replied "We'll kiss in New York"
AWWW~*melt (well i hav no idea why am i so touched haha, why the girl hold his kiss is something about she believed that they both will be survive at the end and reached newyork)
Anyway, the waiter boy die at the end TAT,
the girl was hugging the dead body and said"i just want him to knw i'm about to marry him".
And another scene, a husband hugging his dead wife body on the sea,
when the people want to save the husband and ask him to go up onto the small boat,
the husband said"i don't want to leave my wife here"
T_T

Iphone app--
playing and downloading tons of app

Imma noob in fruit ninja -.- the highest score i got after trying for zilion times were 105marks


Super fail nail art--

don't worry, i remove ady Xp

Anyway, mommy bought me new earing from pasar pagi, RM12



I've nvr stepped out from my house gate until now, for today -.-
My hands are kinda numb for holding iphone too long, still can't figure out the most comfy way to hold it.
I was thinking to have a turtle as pet, but i don't think i would take good care of it hehe.
Quite boring ~.~

呵呵呵呵

还没有做好明天早上考试要用的thumb，呵呵呵呵（有什么好笑噢）

虽然头发很乱，样子也很残，还是要upload



你看我以前多么地容光焕发 -.-


今时不同往日，lol哈哈

这篇很废有木有 :3

小语：我在考虑开放回我的博客 @.@

Perasan human

Just now i'm having afternoon nap and then was awaked by a bad news,
I can't believe we have to that work too,
thus i can't accept this fact then i keep on reading ppl's blog instead of starting to work :(

I think i'm such a perasan human,
seriously i shouldn't look at any people's work,
i feel so perasan that ppl could produce geng work which i cannot do >_<
ishhh i feel so bad.

And mr bf ignore me zzz.

As usual

As usual wasting my time scrolling fb and reading blog again ohno.

I found myself easily influence by ppl,
nw majority of my frens are last minute person,
and i getting nearer to their society yeahh(what-_-)
2-3more weeks to sembreak,
although it seems like there're still bunch of work nt yet done,
but sure can do in time one >_<(just need to stress out abit)
And as usual, i always have holiday before i reached holiday bahaha,
my mind are stuck on pretty clothes, earrings, food drinks and stuff,
hey what about ASSIGNMENT? erm.

im doing moral exercise!
just that i started to wondering on fb and blogs after like 30min of doin lol.

say hi to rillakuma, a pressie for my bestie.(i invented this word, it means bestfren lol)

can't wait to reach her this present during sembreak.(I probably drag this buffday pressie too long lol)
I've another bestie goin to study oversea liao, probably no chance to reach her buffday presie when she buffday,
so i seems to eye-ing on her buffday pressie already(great reason to shopping =_= <and her buffday is on november. (ya it's super far away from nw wahaha)

my fridge is currently -----
i'm quite used to it,
very much easier to take cure compare to my previous long fridge which keep on want to share food and soup with me -_-
but imma nt gonna show my ---- photos la.

GO DO WORK LA LYDIA WOO. >-<

短水

这是我做功课最慢的周末？
（因为一边做一边玩，哈哈。。-.-还好意思讲）
不过算了啦，反正那么快做完也是蒙星星，
最重要是开心 @。@

放轻松点啦～
（不知道deadline前到底做不做得完＝＝）

我必须时时刻刻提醒自己，别跟别人比较好吗，这样应该会开心很多。

btw,刚刚看杨宝贝的部落格，这篇很有意思下按进去她说：人生出来不是受苦的，而是及时行乐

待会儿或是明天再做typo吧-.-

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