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Hi, I'm BACK!!

such a lame opening i know -_-"

It's been such a long time i didn't blog, i don't remember when is the last time i blog @@(and then i realize it's just 8days ago, haha)

Quite surprise thou, i used to have tons of matter to murmur and grumble but recently i don't,

it's a good changes anyway,

I already used to keep things to myself, unlike before,

i did remember i'm the type of person that LOVE to share every single of my experience and feelings,

but now i don't,

firstly there are no ppl to share with, seldom chat with my secondary school friends ady ;(

baby used to ask me "what happened? say, say SAY!!!" when i twit emo words -.-

but saying out the matter and feelings is really tough for me now,

too used to keep, too used to brush things aside,

then it come out the results i myself don't remember how i feel,

just plainly feel emo @@

too deep? k, i'm saying nonsense~xp

Due to my boring, yesterday i read my old diary,

i realize i'm in my fourth diary now, been writing and writing since form1,

imagine how many words had i written, plus blog since form2, wee~

I'm so glad of having this habit of writing,

if not i would barely forgot how i look like before,

then i wouldn't realize how blessed i am now ;)

every time i read through those past, it's like having a vacation to the past,

it feels good and i smile to realize how childish i am in the past, but childish=cute, muahaha.

okay, it's time to end this post,

and to explain why i am writing in english ==

it's because i'm using bro's company alienware!! yay~without chinese...=.=

but it's internet speed is fast~i can open many tabs unlike the laptop in our home, it'll lag when i open more than 4 tabs @@

bye ;)

无奈

最近

心态很懒惰
感到很无聊
做事有随便
很快没耐心
晚上闹别扭
很累不想睡
脸越来越肥
痘痘一直生
越来越枯燥
表现不幽默
失去上进心
语法有问题
英文有退步
说话会打结
对课业无奈
对世界无奈
对自己无奈
总之很无奈

还有

失去羞耻心.

一个人

没事没事.

fail

是的,我考车就酱紫fail了,
两个星期后重考.
刚刚fail的时候其实我没有特别伤心,只是觉得很不值得,
因为我并不知道parking不可以碰白线,
自以为park得很好,
但是就酱紫莫名其妙地被叫下车然后跟我讲fail liao.
果然是练习不足,我竟然连不可以碰白线这种事情都不知道,我活该.
没关系,至少on the road pass了,
我的负担少了一半,专心在剩下一半的driving test吧.
fail fail fail饱它啦,今年是我最恐惧听到fail的一年,
以前不及格当吃白菜,现在不及格又retake又什么鬼,
考个车牌考到酱辛苦拖到酱长时间,我真是有够天才的.

无言,我要沉淀.

Negative

Tomorrow i'm having driving test,
don't want to comment about it -.-
helpless would be the only word i comment, lols.

I try not to think about the money stuff,
i just fail in applying ptptn,
i thought everything would turn out perfect once i success,
but the fact is, i'm way too positive? Blame mr.lim, lols.
he is the one that influence me to be much more positive and straight forward,
yea, YOUR FAULT :p
haiz, whatever, no matter i'm positive or negative,
the fact is the fact,
the fact is i fail in applying ptptn, and might also fail driving test?
Then i'm would be a absolutely FAILURE!!YAY!!
k shuddup -.- i don't feel well with all these failure anyway but there's nothing i can do, sad case, the only thing i can do is face it and whatsover, lols, i'm so negative now.

whatever. I just ought not to worry about money stuff,
there's nothing i can do,
i'm born to be a money spender machine, lols.
But everyone born to be so, right?
We all born to be money spender machine but transform into money maker machine when we grow up.
So, before i transform(lol, sounds like transformer),
then...
forget about it -_-

Kinda regret i choose chonghwa when i'm standard six,
paying 5 years school fees, somemore choose a super duber expensive college when i graduated,
But who knows what would happened if i'm not brought up in chonghwa,
i experience so much, learn so much and change so much,
if i study in an ordinary kebangsaan secondary, I might be a totally different person,
I might not keep fit, might not wear contacts, might not be hardworking, might not have fighting spirit,
and definetely i would not know my bbgs now :)
Btw, I also miss the time, when i'm running here and there, as a prefect,
it seems like we are struggling and fighting for minor miner things,
but that's so called teenages, we cry and fight for nothing but we all grow up by that.

murmuring

I'm here to blog again :) murmuring.

I'm kinda tired, went to school before 9.30 and reached home about 7.30
:( traffic jam.
So tired and blur after attending drawing class,
with lots of concentration in my painting,
my eyes are dry and pain with contact lens on it :(
It's been a long i'm a study type person anymore,
now when listening to lecture for even a short period,
i would feel unpatient, sleepy, etc and etc, haha.
Today i've been thinking what should i major,
tons of people had been asking me this question and i'm nt able to answer that -_- oh where's my future?
I just dun understand why major illustration=chiu geng in drawing,
but how if i'm nt good enough? How if i like it? How if i just major in just because i like it and realize i'm the worst and slowly feel unpatient and don't like it anymore?
urgh, so much consideration :(
I guess i'm really a proud from some aspect,
that makes me hardly accept failure :( always intend to be the best even though i've nvr been.
I did worry if i major in illustration, i'll meet a lot of chiu geng ppl,
and they realize i'm not as good as them and wonder why i'm there,
humiliation, that's what i would condemn.

:( so?

pica pica

I just remove my bb cover yesterday, she's frankly nude now, haha
she does looked prettier without the ungly black cover -_-
anyway the ugly cover kept it white and clean for months @@
bcoz the screen part look more yellowish compare to the protected part.
And for the wallpaper it was the photo taken in a bookstore in klcc,
i love wood type feeling -v-

I'm in love with this :)
these notebooks are about RM10-RM20, O_O
I love this too~x) nice sentence

k, i believe these would be my birthday present~hahaXD(hinting hinting x))
Recently i'm addicted with some high quality notebooks, they are so high standard and having nice design. I love to go bookstore :)
Hey, i think maybe i'm slowly tranfering to an art person, seriously(ya, not before recently -_- i choose art course just to escape study XD)
Believe it or not, i become more chill :)
only thing that would screw me up is driving -_- I've nt been driving manual car for 2weeks+ and having driving test next monday -_-
k, don't want to think of it, commit into God's hand, i'm totally helpless now.

End with something nice x)



Someone must be thinking "FAT!!!!" sitting infront of pc XD lalala~

extreme simple post

Finally i've bought a new bag~
my previous college bag is like tofu that will break anytime.
Although the new bag is expensive..it's a laptop bag but very comfortable~
Might using it for the rest of my college life -..-
I thought i would make up and wear like a peacock once i enter college,
but the fact is, i'm still on the simple track,
being a peacock is too tired and my face doesn't fit to be a peacock at all~

okla, i've been talking too much crap, ahaha.
I've take photos of my shopping result in sunway two days ago~
It's a bag, a edwin jacket and alot of edwin shirt~
but uploading photos would eat a lot of time,
now i should be sitting infront of my desk brainstorming for my assignments!!ohno

byebye~