murmuring

I'm here to blog again :) murmuring.

I'm kinda tired, went to school before 9.30 and reached home about 7.30
:( traffic jam.
So tired and blur after attending drawing class,
with lots of concentration in my painting,
my eyes are dry and pain with contact lens on it :(
It's been a long i'm a study type person anymore,
now when listening to lecture for even a short period,
i would feel unpatient, sleepy, etc and etc, haha.
Today i've been thinking what should i major,
tons of people had been asking me this question and i'm nt able to answer that -_- oh where's my future?
I just dun understand why major illustration=chiu geng in drawing,
but how if i'm nt good enough? How if i like it? How if i just major in just because i like it and realize i'm the worst and slowly feel unpatient and don't like it anymore?
urgh, so much consideration :(
I guess i'm really a proud from some aspect,
that makes me hardly accept failure :( always intend to be the best even though i've nvr been.
I did worry if i major in illustration, i'll meet a lot of chiu geng ppl,
and they realize i'm not as good as them and wonder why i'm there,
humiliation, that's what i would condemn.

:( so?